Summer Meditations

by Ashish Joy

When I take an up close, per­sonal look at my faith, I am most amazed not dur­ing times of rel­a­tive peace and secu­rity. Rather I am most amazed at what this rela­tion­ship I have with Jesus does for me when I walk through tough times, when I’ve made mis­takes, when the road ahead is marked with uncer­tainty, or when I feel the weight of some heavy bur­den on my shoul­ders. There is this over­whelm­ing sense of God and the real­ity that my life is firmly in his grasp.

More than ever I look at the bro­ken­ness of the world around me, the sen­sual and self­ish desir­ings of the human heart, the cold igno­rance of the rich and pow­er­ful who con­tinue to gain from injus­tice, the weak will of the addicted soul crav­ing their next fix too strung out to care any­more, those who have it rel­a­tively good in the world and care more about their retire­ment than a dying soul…and I have to ask, “Where is God and where are God’s peo­ple?” But the moment I ask the ques­tion, the irony of it all hits me. These frus­tra­tions have lit­tle to do with peo­ple, churches, reli­gions, orga­ni­za­tions, cities, gov­ern­ments, world pow­ers, or any­thing of the sort. It has more to do with the direc­tion I feel like I’m headed into. These thoughts and frus­tra­tions have more to do with how I will respond to them.

Do I believe my life will make a dif­fer­ence in the nar­ra­tive of God’s king­dom? I don’t know and I pro­pose that’d be the wrong ques­tion. But the big­ger issue is that I want to find an over­whelm­ing cause where work needs to be done in my world. I want to spend less time phi­los­o­phiz­ing and pos­tur­ing and rather live and be Christ’s hands and feet.

I am tired of get­ting caught up in the medium and not the mes­sage. There is much to be done in the world, and God desires some obe­di­ent, will­ing soul who would look upon a moun­tain and fool­ishly say, “We can take it.” I think God can work with that sort of fool­ish­ness. God can work with any­thing or any­one, why do we com­pli­cate it so in our Chris­t­ian understanding?

I am sick of Christ-followers who are so caught up with their plot of vine­yard of God’s king­dom, that they belit­tle and dis­re­gard their fel­low labor­ers in Christ. Who are we to say that a church, an orga­ni­za­tion, or a group of peo­ple are not in the will of God? How is it that we fight more read­ily with our broth­ers and sis­ters than we fight against the encroach­ing dark­ness of a world sys­tem? Why have we turned into self-righteous, Phar­i­saical, reli­gion work­ers? Is this what the grace and com­pas­sion of Christ and his work have taught us?

I have few con­vic­tions and many opin­ions. There is not much I am sure of any­more. There are always mul­ti­ple accounts, dif­fer­ent per­spec­tives, and charged emo­tions that run through it all. What I am sure of, what I would stake my life on, is Jesus and his king­dom. The sheer real­ity of God in our lives, his abil­ity to make us his own, how we are now a part of his body in the earth, and our abil­ity to respond to the lead­ing and guid­ing of the Holy Spirit…of these things I am sure of.

It’s not about hav­ing the right thing to say, or that I’m always right, or that my opin­ion even mat­ters. The thing that keeps the world going round is that we care, that our hearts are over­whelmed with com­pas­sion, that we should pre­fer oth­ers above our­selves, that we find our iden­tity and pur­pose in our Heav­enly Father, and that at the end of our lives we would have done Christ’s will to the fullest.